Drown out the noise so you can hear what’s real….
Have you ever heard anyone say…”the noise was so loud I couldn’t hear myself think”…? Maybe that’s not always a bad thing…
Have you ever been driving somewhere and a song comes on the radio and, for whatever reason, you turn it up…then you turn it up some more, suddenly you have the volume so loud that you can feel every beat… Maybe you really like the song, maybe you like what/who it makes you think of, or maybe you just needed to drown out the noise…
The noise I’m talking about is the chatter in your head, the self-talk. Good, bad or otherwise, sometimes you just need it to stop. I’ve tried meditation, as many forms as I could find; sitting, laying down, silent, quiet music of some sort, walking, exercise, etc. and I still try to do some sort almost every day. However, it was not until recently that I realized why I get so much “something” out of being alone in my car, a small isolated space, and turning the radio up as loud as I can handle. Don’t get me wrong, I also love to do this with my kids or certain friends, but I noticed that when I’m all alone, it can be different. As I was blaring my music today, suddenly it all made sense.
When the radio is that loud it actually drowns out all the “noise” in my head, it all fades to a low indecipherable mumble in the background. I could no longer focus on my “To Do List”, the morning argument with the kids, the past, the future, all the “could have, would have and should haves” that take up space in my head. Suddenly I realized I was no longer thinking at all and I became fully aware of how I was feeling at that particular moment. All that I could “hear” was what was in my heart, and it was louder and clearer than ever. Wow! What an awareness. When my ears and head were flooded with music, my heart was free to soar above it all. The more I embraced this the more I was able to almost harness the real power within me; I felt clarity in what I was feeling, as opposed to the jumbled emotions of my thoughts.
I continue to try to practice various forms of meditation because I believe in the importance and benefits of mindfulness. But what is mindfulness really? A dictionary will tell you that it is a mental state achieved by focusing your awareness on the present moment while acknowledging and accepting your feelings, thoughts and bodily sensations without focusing on them. As I understand it, it is most simply being aware of “Now”. When I’m driving with the music so loud that I can’t think, I am definitely living in the moment. Strong feelings flood my entire body and I am in total appreciation of the awareness, so much so that when a song ends and I’m not a big fan of the next, I eagerly search for another so that the feeling continues. Ultimately, when I do have to turn the radio down, the thoughts come right back like sand in a hole without missing a beat. But I still feel better, sometimes even energized, and I do believe there is a positive lingering effect on my day.
For that moment, it’s as if time stops, but it doesn’t, it is actually such precious time that some of us don’t think about again that day, instead we go back to focusing on our to do lists, etc…
Now I have a greater understanding of why people who meditate say they are almost addicted to it. For any of you who have not found the right fit in meditation practices, I recommend giving this a try. Chances are, many of you do it already…next time, when the volume is maxed out and you can no longer hear the noise in your head, listen to what your heart is telling you. Namaste
What are some unique or different mindfulness and/or meditation practices you have found?
Disclaimer: Sometimes I’m so caught up in the moment that I end up at Target…regardless of where I was heading…but I always enjoy the drive 😉